because of work commitments I have struggled to do prayers the last few days....the first morning prayer is fine and I start the day with good intentions but as the day progresses it's harder. Last night I was so tired I fell asleep at 7pm on sofa then I went to bed...I was in meeting all day so couldn't pray there either. Felt guilty about that as well.... I'm in work today as well.....and have manager with me so I'll struggle again ..in the evenings I'm so tired to pray after dinner is hard.
When I'm off work I can do it but I am aiming to do do the first prayer and the Middle prayer at least.
I will try to be more disciplined .
Wednesday 29 July 2015
Sunday 26 July 2015
Weekend
i found it. Much easier to do my prayer as I was off work which was good. I also read the book of 110 hadiths, there's so much to remember but I hope as I learn I'll remember it all.
I also did some of the Islamic textile art for my exhibition ext year.
I learnt that the first and middle prayers are said to be the most important as the prophet said the Angels watch over us then so I am doing them as a very minimum.
Even if I miss the others because I'm tired or something then I know I am doing the two most important ones.
I am really enjoying learning about how to behave etc and leaning the hadiths is interesting.i am reading about the life of Prophet Mohammed (peace be upon him) which is fascinating .
Tommo I'm off the day job so I'll be able to pray properly, the evening prayer is the hardest fr me as I'm so tired . But I will try to be more focussed.
I also did some of the Islamic textile art for my exhibition ext year.
I learnt that the first and middle prayers are said to be the most important as the prophet said the Angels watch over us then so I am doing them as a very minimum.
Even if I miss the others because I'm tired or something then I know I am doing the two most important ones.
I am really enjoying learning about how to behave etc and leaning the hadiths is interesting.i am reading about the life of Prophet Mohammed (peace be upon him) which is fascinating .
Tommo I'm off the day job so I'll be able to pray properly, the evening prayer is the hardest fr me as I'm so tired . But I will try to be more focussed.
Monday 20 July 2015
Day 5
today I'm feeling pleased with myself as I managed to do prayer at work yesterday , I did in my lunch hour in my office. No one even noticed so I don't know why I was so self conscious .
So my aim is to do it now each day like this.i rather liked the fact it made me stop and focus on my faith as well instead of work .
As I start getting used to the routine of praying I expect I'll find it challenging sometimes. But I hope I can continue as I don't want to stop again.
So my aim is to do it now each day like this.i rather liked the fact it made me stop and focus on my faith as well instead of work .
As I start getting used to the routine of praying I expect I'll find it challenging sometimes. But I hope I can continue as I don't want to stop again.
Sunday 19 July 2015
Day 4
Today is a work day so will be harder to pray but I am determined to do it so I will do my morning prayer then I'll have to do the lunchtime prayer at same time as the Middle prayer when I get home I think.
I like praying and I look forward to it so I'd like to try and do it at proper time but if I have clients in my office it's hard to fit in......
We shall see I am going to try and do it.
If not will do tonight.
And hope Allah will forgive my lateness.
I have been reading some Hadiths as well in a book I bought and they are very good to help me understand the meanings.
I'll let you know how I get on tommo.
I like praying and I look forward to it so I'd like to try and do it at proper time but if I have clients in my office it's hard to fit in......
We shall see I am going to try and do it.
If not will do tonight.
And hope Allah will forgive my lateness.
I have been reading some Hadiths as well in a book I bought and they are very good to help me understand the meanings.
I'll let you know how I get on tommo.
Challenging day
yester day was challenging I only prayed I'm the morning as I thought monthly were coming....but they ever come and I now feel very guilty , I prayed today but I am disappointed in myself.m
I mustn't dwell as I too late now to change.
Today I am making my shrine for the exhibition which is based on Islam, this peice is called5 pillars
I mustn't dwell as I too late now to change.
Today I am making my shrine for the exhibition which is based on Islam, this peice is called5 pillars
Friday 17 July 2015
Day 2 eid?
Today could be Eid the end of Ramadan if the moons in correct place , I do. Ot do Ramadan ebecause of my health but I do feel guilty for not following it. But this time around Ramadan has open my eyes to the beauty of Islam more and made me realise how we are so lucky to have the Islam faith.
Yesterday was a funny day as I did the first two prayers of the day but. The third fourth and fifth I dint do as I thought I was having period. But it was false alarm ....now I am upset with myself for missing prayer...and a Friday prayer as well!
I am hoping that Allah forgives my error.
I'll carry on today. I have a busy day so it will be hard to fit in but I will as I have to ensure I don't neglect the prayer again.
Yesterday was a funny day as I did the first two prayers of the day but. The third fourth and fifth I dint do as I thought I was having period. But it was false alarm ....now I am upset with myself for missing prayer...and a Friday prayer as well!
I am hoping that Allah forgives my error.
I'll carry on today. I have a busy day so it will be hard to fit in but I will as I have to ensure I don't neglect the prayer again.
First post
This is first post of many I hope, a diary of my journey towards becoming a good Muslim. I want to write and record the story as I may in the future write a book on my journey.( inshallah)
This blog is for my memory and my trials I may face. For I know the journey will be challenging as I am a westerner with a traditionally Church of England back ground.
I have been a Muslim for over 10 years but I didn't practice as I should but I still called myself a Muslim ....I don't know if I should have done now as reAlly a Muslim should pray.
I became Muslim because I married a wonderful Muslim man called Larbi he was born a Muslim in Algeria and he had the biggest heart and cleverest mind of anyone I knew ( and still know) he taught me much and patiently interpreted the great Quoran for me.
In 2001 Allah the great took him and he died. since then I have tried by myself to be Muslim but it is challenging the life we have is tough sometimes .
But now with the help of Allah I want to learn more, pray more, and try to be as I should as a Muslim.
If anyone reads my blog please note it is for my own use only so if it causes offence I apologise in advance, but I am direct in my speech.if it helps people who are in similar situation to me then Hammdullah.
Inchallah I will be able to use this blog for good.
This blog is for my memory and my trials I may face. For I know the journey will be challenging as I am a westerner with a traditionally Church of England back ground.
I have been a Muslim for over 10 years but I didn't practice as I should but I still called myself a Muslim ....I don't know if I should have done now as reAlly a Muslim should pray.
I became Muslim because I married a wonderful Muslim man called Larbi he was born a Muslim in Algeria and he had the biggest heart and cleverest mind of anyone I knew ( and still know) he taught me much and patiently interpreted the great Quoran for me.
In 2001 Allah the great took him and he died. since then I have tried by myself to be Muslim but it is challenging the life we have is tough sometimes .
But now with the help of Allah I want to learn more, pray more, and try to be as I should as a Muslim.
If anyone reads my blog please note it is for my own use only so if it causes offence I apologise in advance, but I am direct in my speech.if it helps people who are in similar situation to me then Hammdullah.
Inchallah I will be able to use this blog for good.
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